ok, juz bare wif me for this entry okiez? coz it will be quite long.. too many things happen to me during my test wk and i din wanna mention it coz it will really affect me badly..
i am glad tat i found a new gd fren hui lei, noe her frm eve.. i think she is a gd advisor as well as listener...
i was really upset and confused abt relations.. and she gave me gd advises.
at 1st i did nt wanna tell her, i juz kept quiet, but she noe something went wrong... actually is i told her after my 2nd last paper i went walk walk..
i went to dhobby ghaut, i walk one round plaza sing den i take train to chinatown, i walk one round den i went bugis.. walk liao den go hm...
by the time i reach tampines is alr nite time and it was raining... i nv bring umbrella, so got hm drenched and fall sick.
i nv eat for the whole dae, although i dunno how i did it, but i juz din eat anything, i din tok to anyone, i din buy anything, and i dun rmb any special bag or accessory i saw.
my mind is simply blank.. nt blank actually, is fill wif one qn...
are we really juz gd frenz and cnt go over the border???
i cant figure it out myself, i dun think my frenz can help me too... and i seriously think he is oso a bit confused.
den i decide to go hm and do a bit of self reflection... end up thr is still no ans to my qn..
i ask hui lei, "how u differentiate between gd fren of opposite gender and someone u like?"
she told me, u wun think of ur gd frenz everyday, but u will think of the person u like everyday... and whenever gt msg cum in, u hope it is the person u like send de..
hmm.. so tats her defintion,.. in tat case, i can guarantee tat i m in love wif him. but wad if tat is nt my definition for loving someone?
and after that dae, i am too tired to think of the qn i ask myself..
end up i go back to yuan dian. i still cant get over david. i dreamt of him tat nite, the nxt dae i flung my calculus paper... really flung...
i am juz too tired of relationships.. and how i wish to be alone and quiet.. i dun mind staying single, but dun let me met someone i like can? its torturing man...
den now is world cup time, so most of the time i will be focusing on world cup ba...
so nt tat sadz at the moment... and i still gt a bunch of cheerful frenz ard me.. hope tat i can really get over it quickly...
