sundae... woke up the lastest of this 2 wks... 11.30am...
got a very bad headache due to flu and fever...i doubt anyone will care...
juz read ah lee's blog..."have u ever tot wad will happen on ur funeral if u were to die tmr?"
hmmm.. this qn i almost everyday oso thinking.. and everyday i willl have different opinion.. it depends on my mood on tat day...
whr will i go after i die? heaven? reborn? or into another world of more unhappiness?
but after all i do not have a choice , do i? i dunno...
jie jie going back shanghai lerx.. 1am flight later... miss her lotz...
my best fren forever will be isabella salim... she is simply too gd for me.. and i felt that i have take for granted of her being my fren...
and yah... wad i nid is juz a warmth hug frm pple ard me... *sob sob*
i oni realise it now.. tat wad i wanted is not a r/s... becoz in a r/s it is gonna be more den juz warm huggs... and i think i am not ready for it....
i juz need frenz... gers and guys.... guys and gers...
am i telling a lie to myself? am i trying to console myself? or am i saying the truth of wad i really think.... *complicated*/...
i am oso very confused...
i dunno wad i wan now.. in the future...
i dun wanna think abt it.. i juz wanna keep on breathing...
living healthily...
