i am currently very sadz... no mood to talk.. no mood to eat oso...
i off today.. nv go wrk.. and someone din even notice my absence... can see how unimportant i am to her... wad the shit.. someone tt she stare at all the time is nt thr !! and she din even bother to msg me .... fine....
i think this time round she had decided to make me give up on her... tts y she is behaving like this,.. and it is really hurting me like crazy...
today went orchard to meet xin jie... and she intro a new fren to me... pei ru... SIA air hostess... today morning juz came back from holland.... well.. she is a nice and pretty ger...glad to noe her...
walk ard in town with xin jie... and she noe tt i am in a bad mood.. so she tried her best to cheer me up... thks ger... but u shld noe i am still in a bad mood... haiz...
if i can take up and give up easily how gd will tt be?? den i wun be like now... so troubled abt relationship things... last time oso like tt.. now oso... cant think of a way to change ....
and when i am down... i start to do funny things... like... walking in town without knowing whr i am heading.. mind empty... juz continue walking in a big crowd... tts me...
or i will buy a cup of drink and start to stone at one corner of the cafe... writing down nonsense...
i am now trying to get prepare tt she will avoid me... or even be very fierce to me... i dunno whether i can take it anot... i scare i will break down and cry in front of her... but i dun wish tt to happen... so no matter wad i muz stay strong and face the fact....
this will be part of my life learning experience for me lor... thr is still a long long road ahead of me for me to go thru... if such small problem kills me... den wad else can i take ?? i dun wanna be such a loser in life... i wanna be and i need to be strong and trust myself tt i can overcome anything...
