yesterday night i had a dream... should i consider it a dream or a nightmare instead? i really have no idea... but i know she appeared in it... when i woke up, i didn't know how to describe the feeling. it wasn't a happy one, it wasn't a sad one either... i just felt uncomfortable. =(
the feeling of loneliness perhaps, i felt so empty and don't feel like talking. i hugged my piglet and started crying. why all these must happen and why must it end? izzit really fated? or everything is within my control but i failed to do a good job?
pple who are in love are full of happiness and they all have sweet sentences to tell one another.
but my case is so so so different! we argue, we snatch things, we sabotage each other, scold one another stupid, brainless,idiotic!
i shld feel glad that i dun have to stand ur nonsense anymore... but y am i feeling so empty? y i m so down w/o ur scoldings, ur sarcastic, ur nonsense,...
y muz all ur nonsense cum to me and make me feel so special? cant u give some of ur nonsense to others instead of me...
stop telling me that actually u cared for me but dunno how to express it.. coz by telling me that i already felt so touched and concerned.
stop asking me whether i'm alright, coz u will make me tell more lies to u saying i'm fine.
stop appearing in front of me when u know i will shoo u away not to let u see me cry...
cant u see all these i am doing is to try not hurting u?XUETE!!
if given one more chance, i will tolerate ur nonsense... i will be good to u.. i promise...
juz one chance.....
"never look back we said, how was i to know i'd miss u so...."
