its now midnight... and i've got nothing to do.. so i decided to write an entry..
currently my mood is very very down.. coz i juz kena rejected by someone... dun ask me who is this person.. coz i dun think i will say out... very sadx... and i seek console from weiwen... he tried to make me laugh, but his mission failed...
wadever~ supposed to meet kaiyan todae to pass her the present i bought for li nee.. but i guess tmr i will go parkway myself ba...
tmr meeting vincent kwa... going orchard ba... still owe him his present.. tmr giving him...
izzit true tt all guys go for figures of gers? how sad it is... if people whom i have confessed to like me when i becum slim.. am i suppose to accept them as bfs? are they really liking me as who i am both physically and personality? this world is so realistic...
even kids knew tt fat is ugly.. slim is pretty... wad a world we live in..
if u guys wun be able to see me agn in this world pls do not cry for me...
i am not stupid.. i dun kill myself becoz of being rejected..
but i realised i have nv get enough of love in my life.. for the past 18 yrs.. i have only been receiving love from my family dad and mom.. my frenz.. and not all my frenz.. most were using me.. most were backstabbing me... who else can be trusted except for my parents.? yet there are so many times when i m in trouble and i dun dare to tell them.. coz they simply dun understand how i feel... and these are the time tt i need another kind of love... which no one can give... u guys can sae tt i am desperate... can sae tt i am vain.. wadever u call it.. but i need hugss tt are only meant for me and no one else...how happie can anyone get when u have such huggies and sweet words consolation...
pls let me rest in peace thank you...
