hmmm .. wonder how others feel about me... daniel said he think i should smile more, coz when i dun, i look rather stress @ work... and i dun understand why my buddy treats me like this.. its like, he helps me out in things ( dunno is being forced by my leader or he ownself helpful ), but he doesn't seems to talk to me much... (compare to tweety or even the temps).. other then work, we hardly communicate... even when i see him online and i tried to ask him how's his day etc, he dun seem to reply me... sob....
i'm somebody that gets irritated or upset when others ask around whether wanna da bao or want go anywhere and din ask me... i'm very sensitive to all this questionings going around... dunno why also... i felt hurt when 'someone" jio the others to go for lunch but not me... sigh...
finding myself leading a meaningless life now.. enjoying the fun.. but i dun think its a meaningful one... trying to be a better person... reducing the amount of vulgarities, not to gamble anymore, visit pubs and clubs less often... yea... is that what a better person is all about? i dun wan others to see me as a typical "ah lian ah huay" girl.... i dun involve in quarrels and fights FOR SURE... nvr ever in my life... i'm always the peace maker... yea... dun judge me by my looks please... coz looks are deceiving....