has been really down on luck... dad spoilt his old lappy on saturday, and i spoilt my desktop on sunday... have to use my lappy now... hope this won't spoil *cross fingers*
going to sim lim this weekend to buy a new one... hope it will be within my budget, tho dad is sponsoring, but dun want him to spend so much too.
Felt rather useless nowadays... i always think girls should at least know how to prepare a simple meal, tidy up their room.. but i din manage to... already 21 this yr, my room still have to be tidy up by mum, laundry, ironing, cooking... basically everything at home is done by her. Wondering what i do at home? After work come back, switch on my comp, eat dinner, sometimes help to wash dishes, den back to my room on aircon and sit in front of my comp till late night, yawnss... sleep. This is how i spend my weekdays. Weekends lehz, sleep a bit later.. wake up and ask breakfast eat what.. eat liao bath, make-up.. go out... if no programs, i will online the whole day...
i know i have been too lazy to do house chores, and i dun learn at all. The last time i swept and mop the floor, hmm.. last yr? LOL...
i'm spendthrift... so i dun have much savings... when i'm lack of cash, i become moody, sometimes even cry when there's things i want to buy eagerly. Dad knows my pattern too well.. whenever he see my face gloomy, he will ask "u finish ur salary already ah?" sigh.... like ytd, comp spoil... i cried... den he say he sponsor me go buy a new one, and i stopped crying... useless right?
i also know very well i dun excel in my studies, now waiting for application result i also very worry can't get in... and honestly speaking, i dun perform well in my job either.
Looking into the mirror, i ask myself, teoh shu ying, what are u good at? u're a diabetic, u have got no money, no good figure, borderline in ur studies, hate ur job, only know how to criticise others, u can't be independent, everything need ur parents to settle for u...
in my own reflection, i can only see one word, FAILURE...
i see so much negative things in me... and i dunno where i should start to correct from...