I'm StiLL WaiTinG 4 (_)

2010-07-15T09:43:00.000-07:00

好久没在这里写东西了，你知道有多久吗？一年了！有些事，未必说了你们会懂。说出来是为了让自己好过一些。在爱情里，不是努力就有用的，但不努力就绝对不行。到底要怎样才能衡量彼此的付出与努力够不够？累了就要歇息，爱情能吗？一段感情需要时间，耐心，和体谅与包容来维持。难道就没有人会想喊累，想要暂停一会儿？还是跟本就没选择的权力？

2009-07-09T10:47:00.000-07:00

[S for smart, S for stupid, S for.... Shuying]

Sometimes i just can't stand my own stupidity. Nearly stepped out of lecture halfway during math lec... already wasn't in the mood to concentrate, and the lecturer was speeding up his explanation on solving the sum. Got so frustrating when i can't finish copying his working and he just remove the paper from the visualiser. =.= Then I began to show my unwillingness to stay, packed up... ready to go... but gab gave me this week's "i weekly" magazine to entertain myself...

i hated math really... but i find it easier to practice, than to memorise. Therefore i left with no choice but mathematical subjects. If not, i would have chosen sociology. And what most, its compulsory to take math.

Mee hoon kuay has become my favourite in SIM food court. Not too sure how other stalls food taste like. It doesn't look at all appetising to me.
Thanks jane for helping me to go to the printing shop to print and after that collect for me my notes. =)
Met up with vince today... usual place... it felt nice... he matured... and i'm happy for him for sure.
I've learnt to accept the fact every human will change after sometime. And the choice is mine, whether or not i wanna befriend with somebody. Thus, it proves the saying of 'friends come and go'... coz everyone has a choice to make. I have friends whom become so fuck up that i dun even bother to say hi. I also have befriend with those whom i have used to dislike. I woke up from the "friends forever" stage and have moved on to see more of this practical world. =)

2009-06-29T06:31:00.000-07:00

School has started for a week. So far so good, just that i really have to catch up with my mathematics and english proficiency. Hahas... Gabriel is a good companion, just that at times he really piss me off. But after a few minutes, everything will be okay. I dun deny that he is smart and cute. (Hope he wun be reading this entry, if not he will be even more papaya).
Exploring for good and cheap food has become a hobby. So whenever i dun work after sch, most likely me and gab will be taking train rides all around sg in search for food.
Clementi centre market - wanton mee oishi! The green chilli is super nice, sour and crisp. The char siew has a little bit of fats, so when u chew, you won't only taste the hard lean meat, but the bouncy fat portion as well (doink doink~) LOL... my favourite!
Clarke Quay - Central Mall basement has got many varieties. But the prices are not kind of cheap nor too exp. The muffins from "Muffin Marvel" is worth trying. =)
Chinatown - Chicken rice opposite Chinatown point, near Spring Court restaurant. Gab was praising so much about it, that he da bao 1/2 chicken with 3 packet of rice for only him and his mom for dinner.
Bar bakery @ Hong Lim Park- cheese break is yummiliciousZ! Hot and fresh from oven, the bread is with cheese and raisin fillings in it. Super recommended...
More makan places to come along i guess.. hahas... Gab & I needs to plan for healthier choices liao.. =)

2009-06-23T06:07:00.000-07:00

everybody is talking about H1N1 now. And suay suay i'm down with contagious flu. Have been watching my temperature very closely, lucky got no fever. Feel like wearing a mask when i'm out, but i can't tolerate the kind of attitude others give me. Imagine u go on board a train, and everyone starts to dismiss themselves away from u. As if u are really some dangerous identity. Their knowledge is so little that most of them din know wearing a mask is to protect them and not the one wearing it. =.= Piss off.....
School started very excitedly and also boringly. How contradicting can i be man! Yea... excited and happy to go back to sch, but i have to take boring train rides, waking up at 6.30am! Yawns~ Lesson at 8.30am really sucks! My whole July is packed... omg.... sigh... BUT, the good thing to celebrate about is that I got into a course which i wished for, bank approval is okay, and I've got a part time job to earn my own allowances. Everything have been in place.. which i'm really glad about. Coz that was my original plan. Take a bank loan, study Economics & Finance, and get a part time job. =)
1st day of school met gabriel at clementi station den we go to sch tgt... Lunched at Clementi central market. The wanton mee was not bad... Den me and gab was talking about budgeting. Wanton mee + drink = Less than $5. That will be our spending for a simple lunch. =)
Yea, Clementi market really have many varieties of food and its cheap and nice! So this is how the both of us are gonna start saving. Haha... Then we talk about staying back in school to study after lecture. Actually i quite like this idea too, but thats only for days which i dun have to work. Sadded... Ultimately, our goal are the same, that is to get good results, pass with flying colors =)

2009-06-20T08:56:00.000-07:00

busy + tired = shag
there are no other words that i can think of right now that can describe me best. Travelling from east to west and back to east has become my daily routine. MP3 has once again become my best buddy. My life now only consist of work and school. Come home check facebook, msn chat a while.. concuss... rejecting friends gathering will become very common le ba.... now my free time has reduce to so little such that i have to carefully plan what should i do during my free time. And currently i have decide to leave my free time for myself. I need to rest so that i wun get sick, i need to study so that i can pass my exams, and i definitely need to spend time with my parents to let them know i cherish and love them. There are so many things that begins with "I".
But out of a month, i get only 2 or 3 days off. I'm starting to worry that i can't make it through my uni... thats why i need to always remind myself to hang on.. and carry on. I really hope my friends can give me their support and understand me if i do not turn up for gatherings or anything. Cya guys =)

2009-06-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

Hahas, please have a good look at the childhood pictures below...
a lot of memories, how i wish i can turn back time. But well, i have to move on.. =)

boy boy look... looking for FOOD!

my favourite pic!! hahas...

i like to be carried whenever i go out... =)

this is at my nanny's house kitchen... i miss her so much... and her 2 sons...
she took care of me since i'm 4 months old.. all the way till 4 yrs old... =)

Dad & me at Mersing Malaysia... Used to travel to M'sia every weekend.... i miss the good old days...

2009-06-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

well, i'm beginning to feel the randomness in me again. Yea, once in a while I will have random thoughts & behaviours.
Yilong just POP, zhi hao ORD, Jacq came back from Italy, Eve quit her lab job, Vicky got a new job, pei shan went for interview, and a lot more updates. People around me seems busy... oh well... I use to had that busy times too... hee =)
Usualness is habitual. Kicking a habit means u will react differently from what u used to react.
I sew my own bedroom curtain, mum got so stunned, coz my sewing skills were actually neat and as good as the sewing machine... (of coz lah... it took me 3 hrs to get it done!) anyway, i'm quite happy with her comments.. hee =)
i taught my mum how to prepare beer battered fish... and she realize how amazing TSY can be.. HAHAHA! she said "wah, my ah girl is really jing de liao chu fang, chu de liao ting tang"
but at the same time, me & my dad is havin communication breakdown... and i choose to remain quiet... i dun wanna explain myself or to him... coz i know the way i release my anger is cry... and he... will raise his voice at me. This kind of situation is making me avoiding him. Worse thing is now i'm always at home.. if i'm still working, i can still stay in office.. or choose to have dinner with frens... sigh....

2009-06-06T06:23:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to Yan!!
Lols... Yea, my good sister since primary 4! Very fast, this is the 11th year of our friendship liao. And it continues =) Had a small celebration in Minds Cafe at Tampines Safra with Lena, Eve, Shumin, Me, and her bro jonathan.

To Kai Yan:
My dear jie jie, stay pretty, healthy & happy! With lots of love yo! ^^

Friday & Saturday spent with Vicky babe. She is really someone special & fun to hangout with. Hahas... Surprised by the bee hoon she cooked for me. Went Cineleisure for k box and la kopi session... And becoz she is older den me, she really cares for me a lot.. be it academic or work or r/s, anything lo... She is always there for me.. I appreciate really. Tho she is convincing me to go clubbing with her all the time. Hahas....

Vicky's ai xin bee hoon =)

Saturday- East Coast Park

Vicky tried so hard to blade.. hahas... she's yelling for help every 10 seconds or so coz she dunno how to stop.. .end up cycling with me.. lol... she's a bit bimbo lah.. but she is definitely cute and spontaneous... so we cycle to bedok jetty.. rested and see how others do fishing... dinner at C-nai Hong Kong cafe... =)

I think I have done more than a friend, and its not right. Tho they always say it takes 2 hands to clap. I dun want to be a substitute, neither do i wanna be a toothpick. What is the purpose of a toothpick? To help pick out the particles between teeth & once its cleared, u throw the toothpick away. U let me feel that I'm the toothpick, which helps u to solve ur r/s problem between u & ur gf, and once its solved, u dun need me anymore. I believe I deserve someone who truly likes me and is genuine. I'm so afraid to fall again.

I'm learning to say no, to be alone, to keep things to myself, to love myself more.

2009-06-02T06:35:00.000-07:00

after so much things, i realise how helpless can i be... and the useless me only know how to cry and not how to solve my own problem. Or should i say i've tried. but i'm choiceless?
I plug in my mp3 & started crying, so that i would not hear my own sobbing... and then i fell asleep... woken up by dine's msg.. so glad that dine came to accompany me after her work. I din wanted her to do so... coz i dun wanna cry in front of her or anyone of my friends. But it really hurts me too much, and dine sense the unusualness in me, and insist on meeting me.
I have never wanted to borrow money from others, be it family or friends. But I have tried my best to help others out, with some bad debts which i know cannot be returned to me.
Now i know how hard it is to borrow from others. Really.
U guys can nvr understand that kind of hurt i'm getting & feeling right now. With such friends that tell u straight in the face "sorry, i'm not a bank"... and when u feel like talking to someone just to release ur emotions, they tell u "aiyo~ cry simi lan... so much things to cry abt mehz?"
I start to question myself... are these really call friends? i think they are even worse than any strangers i would meet up in the streets.
What i wanna say is, of coz i know i can always take bank loans, but the interest that they are charging is really gonna kill me. Dun ask me abt my brother, coz i know he is not gonna help me much this time round. Bank loan will be my last resort. 15June. Either i make it or i lose it.
I'm not a person who will easily borrow from people ard me w/o thinking how do i repay back for ur info. I hate bad debts myself, i wun do that to any of my close ones. Now i know what is f.r.i.e.n.d.s ..... this world is simply too realistic and cruel. Watch out people...
Shuying is gonna start anew.... with a new set of resolutions...

2009-06-01T00:25:00.000-07:00

Finally I'm out of DHL yay!!! Haha... another chapter of my life is gonna begin.. so i shall describe how i end this chapter...
Dine & Jessie couriered this to me, and eveleen is the delivery man. LOL... Inside is a letter and a photo with very nice frame made by them. Thanks sweeties =)

This is the starbucks team beside us (nokia team). They are very fun people too.. Especially the only guy.. hahas...

Den this is our nokia team, not all yet... As u all can see, we are all ard the same age.. so u can imagine we are like a class .. haha!!

My executive & 2 leaders gave farewell speech and uncontrollably, i cried... Hmm... 11 months of working, combines of laughters, tears, unhappiness, stress, hardwork & fun. We've been thru it altogether. Yes, and i'm leaving for good. To further my studies. Hope they will continue as a team effort! =)

my sweeties at DHL: Silia, Jessie, ah dine!!

~Team building cum Farewell BBQ @ Changi ~
so it started off with roller blading... hahas... damn tiring sia...

the hardworkers of the day..

i love my backview on the swing! and thanks to the camera woman heng hweelin... lol...

looking out at the sea, deep thoughts.... hmmm...

its dark & its game time!!

The MLS team that i once was part of them =)

And the SAP team... yea... love u people!!

We are one big family!!

2009-05-31T01:10:00.000-07:00

it really saddens me whenever u tell me about how she treats u. Becoz I believe u definitely deserve someone better. Since u already have an answer in mind, u are just trying to have confirmation from people ard u so that u know ur decision is a right one. Everytime u will say u are not good enough for her, not up to her expectations. But u did try ur best lo. Ur low self-esteem is really the killer. Leading her to juz yell at u whenever u 2 quarrel, coz she know u wun be able to explain for yourself. And u admit that u are afraid of her, thats y u choose to keep quiet. But dear, in a r/s, isn't communicating the most important and most basic element? If u can't even have that, what is there anymore to talk abt? Giving up on a r/s don mean u don love a person anymore. Sometimes, its juz all the other factors that is not right. U said u 2 are like 2 parallel lines that can nvr meet. but lets see it this way, put the 2 parallel lines tgt, it will form a very nice straight line isn't it? And that is the fact, u 2 have been tgt as a straight line ya. Can see how exhausted u are with so many commitments. Thats y it saddens me even more seeing u cry. No matter what, i'll be there for you.

2009-05-27T06:44:00.000-07:00

finally, i left 2 days in DHL... over this period of 11 months, there are many things which i have learnt. Aside from the skills I've gain in computer and logistic knowledge, I've learn to see things from different angle, and to control my temper. =)
Thurs night had dinner with Jessie, Dine, and Silia at OUB centre Sakae Sushi. Had loads of fun with them. They are not in the same department as me, but seems like we clique quite well...hahas... oh wells =)
Received letter from SIM already. Going to settle the payments etc asap. Hopefully can pass bridging, den it will be a 2 yr course =)

silia, jessie, me, dine

1 week no need go raffles place liao... hahas... 3 siao cha bor

Sushi!! We had the student dinner buffet at $13.90++, with a premium plate complimentary per person, green tea waived off as the waiter know jessie..hahas...

dear dine cried!!!!!!!!! lol.... poor thing...

foursome of the nite! if u carefully look, it looks like audi logo.. LOL...

Hope we will have more outings like that next time even though i'm not there anymore. =)

Took a cab back with Dine.. was too tired after the "photo shooting" session.. lol..

happy happy life ...

2009-05-12T04:01:00.001-07:00

yea!!! new desktop fixed! =)
more updates to be continued... recently more busy on work and some other issues...
hope can go beijing this july to meet my lao po... =)

2009-05-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

has been really down on luck... dad spoilt his old lappy on saturday, and i spoilt my desktop on sunday... have to use my lappy now... hope this won't spoil *cross fingers*
going to sim lim this weekend to buy a new one... hope it will be within my budget, tho dad is sponsoring, but dun want him to spend so much too.
Felt rather useless nowadays... i always think girls should at least know how to prepare a simple meal, tidy up their room.. but i din manage to... already 21 this yr, my room still have to be tidy up by mum, laundry, ironing, cooking... basically everything at home is done by her. Wondering what i do at home? After work come back, switch on my comp, eat dinner, sometimes help to wash dishes, den back to my room on aircon and sit in front of my comp till late night, yawnss... sleep. This is how i spend my weekdays. Weekends lehz, sleep a bit later.. wake up and ask breakfast eat what.. eat liao bath, make-up.. go out... if no programs, i will online the whole day...
i know i have been too lazy to do house chores, and i dun learn at all. The last time i swept and mop the floor, hmm.. last yr? LOL...
i'm spendthrift... so i dun have much savings... when i'm lack of cash, i become moody, sometimes even cry when there's things i want to buy eagerly. Dad knows my pattern too well.. whenever he see my face gloomy, he will ask "u finish ur salary already ah?" sigh.... like ytd, comp spoil... i cried... den he say he sponsor me go buy a new one, and i stopped crying... useless right?
i also know very well i dun excel in my studies, now waiting for application result i also very worry can't get in... and honestly speaking, i dun perform well in my job either.
Looking into the mirror, i ask myself, teoh shu ying, what are u good at? u're a diabetic, u have got no money, no good figure, borderline in ur studies, hate ur job, only know how to criticise others, u can't be independent, everything need ur parents to settle for u...
in my own reflection, i can only see one word, FAILURE...
i see so much negative things in me... and i dunno where i should start to correct from...

2009-04-30T22:55:00.000-07:00

Happy Labor Day! And its a long weekend again. Hurray~!
So fast it is already May, and 2009 is indeed not a very good year for many of us I guess. Due to economic crisis, everyone is afraid of losing their jobs as companies announce to retrench; cut cost etc. Families begin to tighten their budget too. That’s a point of view as an employee.
As an individual, year 2009 so far has been quite depressing. Granny left us in March, and then aunt’s husband in April. When I saw my aunt, I felt sorry for her, but I know I would not be able to feel exactly what kind of feeling is she having. Mom died out of a sudden in the old folk’s home, she did not have the chance to say the last words to her or thank her for being a good & caring mother. Less than a month’s time, her husband fell down from the escalator and went into coma and pass away. Losing the 2 most important people in your life, I think not everyone is able to accept it and overcome. I really hope Aunt can get through this period, and live her life to the fullest. She still has her 3 children and her 2 grand-daughters stay by her side to give her all the support she needs.

2009-04-25T05:59:00.000-07:00

Yea!! Gotten my bonus le, super happy... And as agreed with yanz, we went to IKOI restaurant for its japanese ala carte buffet. At first I wanted to have dinner, but when called to make reservation a day before, the person said its full house this weekend... so we had the lunch buffet instead. But well, its still nice after all =) With many complimentry dishes! =)

Name Of Business: Ikoi Japanese Restaurant
Reservation Hotline: 68873788
Business Address: 401 Havelock Road, #01-01 Hotel Miramar Singapore 169631
Price: $33++
*Advise to take train to Outram Park and take a cab there. Cab fare around $4.00.

One of the complimentary dish @ Ikoi - Kaninabe. (er... sounds a bit wrong lah.. but thats really the name of it!) Beside it is special skewered Unagi.. yummy yummy~ !

Yanz is sick again... or should i say, havent fully recover... hmmm.. but a bit worry for my dear sister... dunno how to eat tablet medicine... dun drink bitter herbal tea... like that how to recover... haiz... pray that she get well soon...

Yea, din manage to take a photo with both of us in it coz the table we got was rather cramp and we sit opposite each other. *sobs*

But nvm.. I guess we enjoyed the buffet! =)

After lunch, took a bus to orchard... omg... GAP's 30% storewide sales is super tempting!! feel like buying almost everything there... end up due to budget restriction... bought only the jacket... lol.. i took white, yan took pink ^^

End up buying a long pants from Dorothy Perkins as well... and to prevent myself from further spending... decide to go home for dinner... LOL... its only the 1st day of my pay.... must tahan 30 more days before my next pay come in... hmmm... shuying dun wanna eat grass...... lol... =)

2009-04-19T06:45:00.000-07:00

WHEE!! (jump! jump! jump around!!)
shuying have got a new and real pet ! Her name is coco, 1yr old, originated from Netherlands. =)
Shuying's daddy doesn't like her to play pet society too much, and so decided to get her a REAL pet to take care... But Coco is really very cute and adorable! (Just like her new owner ME!) Lol... And our favourite is carrots!! yeah... =) Named it as Coco is because of her colour... have to comb her hair 1 wk once, (fyi... she have got real nice and soft fur!! ) From certain angle she look like a puppy... Mom say she have got flat nose and big eyes, just like me... thanks for the big eyes lah, but flat nose... hmmmm. ... wah lao eh!! *sob sob*
Anyway, its considered as a 21st bday present from Dad bah... hee..... he say actually can bring Coco down for a walk after he buy the lease for it... but hor.. i scare the cats and dogs downstairs will attack my innocent Coco lor... so better dun... stay within my house will do.. hahas...

COCO!!!!!

2009-04-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

Decided to go back to study... applied for SIM's UOL economics and finance full time. Hope I can get accepted and i promise to do my best.
Work is as usual, but surroundings have changed. I'm not as close to my own colleagues as before (or maybe i wasn't even close to them in the 1st place), but i'm closer to the team beside us [starbucks team]... every morning dine will call me to go pantry with them, we are just like friends... not colleagues... if i manage to catch the 6pm bus, they will talk to me on the bus as well. I'm rather happy this way... But if i'm really accepted by UOL, i will have to leave the job already. To pursue this dream of mine, I'll have to work extra hard than many others. And i'm determined to do so... =)

someone that once i liked so much... now is living very happily with her gf. =)

2009-04-10T08:36:00.000-07:00

Jessie's 21st @ Costa Sands Pasir Ris
The birthday girl is so pretty! just like a princess. With all her relatives and friends there to celebrate this special day together. Naughty me and geraldine sabotage her with a little cream on her face. Hee.. Seeing so many people celebrate their 21st.. it makes me begin to wonder how will mine be like? I'm accumulating my own karma.. hahas!! I kept sabotaging my friends during their birthday.. and expected them to do the same back to me in October.. lol... hope they wun throw me into the pool jiu hao...

Jessie with the present that we gave her. Its a bag Kaori bought for her when she went back Japan last month. Heard that its a very famous brand in Japan call Samantha Vega. Hope she will like it. =)

Her nails were beautifully done at only $17!! Good deal leh~=)

2009-04-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

Happy 21st to Jia Wei!!
A guy I know since sec 2, 8 yrs already. Very happy for him too.. =) Saturday went for his bday celebration at Downtown East. Before that went Bedok K with Vincent. With this group of guys around, they never failed to brighten my day. ^^
Saw many old friends on Sat night, people like Gabriel, Hong Quan, peiyan, benny and Mr Chew!! My sec sch principal... Haha! He is forever looking fit and young lah.. Had a good chat with him and the rest till 3am plus den cabbed home. Slept at 6 morning, thus Sunday is for me to stay home rest. =)

Sabotage session by: Guys (using whipped cream) - Yonghua, Vincent, Benny. Girls (using flour) - Annice, Kris, Shuying

HAHA!!

Even Mr Chew is having a fun time seing jiawei being bullied by us. All the ex-greenviewans. =)

Culprit caught in action!! We after that ran all over the whole place, coz jiawei started to search for us. LOL...

From left: Hong Quan, Vincent, Wee Hian, Wei Lie, Jia Wei, Yonghua, Benny, Gabriel, Mr Chew

From left: Kris, Annice, Jia Wei, Shuying, Peiyan, Mr Chew

Me & the Bday boy =)

Me and the towkay son... Lol...

2009-03-31T04:07:00.000-07:00

Sunday meet up with yanz lena and john went to ECP cycling. The sun was so bright that we nvr thought it would rain heavily in the late afternoon. Sadden by the rain, but we still had a lot of fun! =)
After cycling, went to Bedok central for dinner and headed to the new open Cash Studio KTV. Its rather worth it! Latest songs, no tidbits charges, aircon not as cold as kbox... $38 ++ for 3 person, inclusive 1 drink. Additional $10 per pax if u have more den 3 person. =) And the best thing is, u can actually bring ur own drinks(non-alcoholic) and snacks in!! *Present your student pass to waive off 10% service charge!
Enjoying Sundays like this.. =)

2009-03-28T11:52:00.000-07:00

Just came back from Vincent and Annice's 21st Birthday celebration at ECP.
Big mistake made by Gerald, he booked tomorrow's date for the bbq pit instead of today. Realize it when me and vincent reach East Coast with all the food we order.Rather depressed, saw others using our pit and some more they showed us their AXS receipt of the pit. I tried to negotiate with the other owner of the pit who had booked 2 pits side-by-side. But they did not want to lend out to us as they are having people who are vegetarians, thats why they booked 2 bbq pits. =( Gerald checked online to see if there are still available pits at ECP, but it was fully booked. Sigh... Therefore, we went over to Annice's chalet. Just nice Annice is also having her 21st celebration at ECP chalet, and she ordered buffet, so she had space for Vince to bbq. YAY!! =) Though its rather cramp there as there were guests of Annice & also Vince friends around. But, its better than not having any place for us to bbq bah. Hmmm, and it also benefit people like Gerald, jiawei, yonghua. As they are the common friend of both Annice & Vince. Yea... 1st time ever, Shuying stood the whole day at the pit to bbq food for Vince's friends. Thanks to Yonghua who realise "Eh shuying havent eat and drink lo...." And he pour me a cup of greentea. ^^
End up Vince was drunk and vomited. Actually its expected. One of his friend bought a bottle of Martell. The other friend came with a canon (dua pau) martell. Wah lao... not drunk is fake de lor...
Food cannot finish, separated into small portions, each of us (Gerald, junjie and me) took home. Vincent is gonna stay over at his friend's hse today. He left drunk before us. So we have to clear the place for Annice. Sigh............ Never have liquor on birthday celebrations, unless u go to the club.
I think today I'm the only girl he invited from greenview. The rest are all guys. Its always good and happy to meet up with old friends.
People whom I meet up today : Jiawei, Gerald, Yonghua, JunJie, Eugene, Calvin Tan, Elyas, Vincent, Annice, Kris. =)

2009-03-27T23:11:00.000-07:00

Some overdue photos of shumin's 21st bday celebration at Din Tai Feng last week. So admire shumin, she's getting prettier everytime i see her. More feminine, well dressed-up, nice hair-do, beautiful make-up. And Kaiyan lehz, she is all along pretty, but everytime i see her, i feel that she is more successful. She's in sales, of course the effort to chiong must be there. But of course you reap what you sow. I believe her hardwork will pay off in the near future. Whereas for me, I'm not getting any commissions, just my basic monthly salary and some bonuses. Well, honoestly speaking, I don't like my job. Or should I say "we" don't like our jobs. Most people work for the sake of $. Hahas.
Afterall, life is so short. There is no time for us to waste at all. From a new born baby we take our time to learn to crawl, walk, eat and talk. Till we started nursery, we learn about words, how to express ourselves using words and feelings. Then it comes to Tertiary education. Learning about a specific field of studies which u had chosen. Following up is work, dating, marriage, having baby, getting old and retire, sick, and lastly, before you realise how much things you've been thru, you are about to leave this world. I hope that people who have a passion, live it. Sir Dr William Osler (1849-1919) said "We are here to add what we can to life, not to get what we can from life."

shumin, me, yan

Us with eeyore

10 yrs on friendship!

2009-03-22T03:00:00.000-07:00

5 days of wake ends today. There's a church service before we left for cck 's cemetery. When we pay our last respect, they put the holy bible and a cross in her hand. Also, the handbag that she used to carry when she goes out, the shoe she always wear to events and dinner.
At cck cemetery, we sang and prayed in front of her grave, took a piece of soil and threw onto her coffin. As my dad is the eldest son in the family, he held grandma's photo and stnad in front of us. It really sadden everybody, especially when 2nd aunt began crying out loud and calling 'mother'. I cried and dare not look up. Thru out the whole ceremony, i just stare on the floor, i can't stand seeing people crying.
I thank all people for their condolences and people who have went to the wake. Like yan and her bf, sam, hui ling. Like what my brother said, ah ma lived till age of 91, with 16 great grandchildrens, its something to be happy about. The pastor told us that, the last time when she visited grandma before she pass away, she had a holy meal with her, and before she left, she asked grandma does she need her to pray for her health or anything? And grandma told her, yes. Grandma asked if the pastor could pray that God will protect and take care of all her children and grandchildren. Grandma is always there for us, and she always hope that we are well taken care of.
Grandma, I love you, rest in peace.

2009-03-18T19:48:00.000-07:00

"Bye Bye"
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
Suddenly there's this urge in me to sing this song for my dearest grandma who left us yesterday afternoon. She had coronary insufficiency due to old age (91). I felt rather regretful, cause I'm suppose to visit her on Sundays in the old folks home. But recently I did not go that often. I did not watch her dying, i can't imagine if that were to happen. I question myself, will I be able to take it if I see her slowly close her eyes and not move again. I am someone who cries easily.
I remember the last thing she want to see is to see me getting married, to a guy who can take good care of me. I hope I can make her wish come true one day.
To dearest grandma: you will always live on in our hearts.

2009-03-07T09:20:00.000-08:00

By this time, i guess most of you have already seen pictures of my HK trip on facebook. hehe, but i have selected a few that i like most to put on my blog! My 5 days of holiday is fun and tiring. Went to Macau and Shenzhen also.

Chipmunk! they are just simply lovely =) HK disneyland is fun and full of amusement. Eve and I had a great time there.

He is camera shy! But definitely cute and handsome. ^^

The owner of this dog is kind enough for me to take a pic tgt with her dog. =)

Avenue of Stars is actually quite boring. Is somehow like Clarke Quay. Just that they have handprints of some famous stars.

I like this picture a lot! Coz the background is nice and my sitting position is very nice too! LOL..

me and eve at ngong ping cable car station, awaiting to go up to tai yu shan.

windy windy~ ~ ~

2009-02-25T06:19:00.001-08:00

My facebook says "Teoh Shuying felt somehow neglected" and people starts asking why, wat happened? Yea, I've been neglected nowadays especially at work. I don't know its good or a bad sign, but i just dun like this way of treating me. =(
Backed at home, everythings became so different. I'm being so well-fed. Mom's cooking is always delicious and warm hearted. Daddy's "Daughter u're back =)" makes me feel funny and happy at the same time. Everytime Mum will make hot the dishes while i'm bathing & i ate them all serve hot. Mum & Dad always can sense things in me. How strange? I'm so touched during dinner just now. I actually had my dinner in the office already, but Dad bought chilli crabs, so i ate a bit.
dad: "Daughter u going HK on 27th?"
me: "yah, why?"
dad: "got money to go shopping not?"
slience~ ~ ~
and daddy went to his wallet and took out $200. I did not utter a word, coz I was too touched to say anything. My heart felt thanks i guess he have sensed it before i receive the money from him. Tho to many of us now, 200 is not a large sum, but he is no longer a working person. As a retiree, 200 is almost half of his monthly allowance that the govt gave to him. =)
And although sister is in Shanghai, but when she heard that I'm going HK, she also decided to give me some "shopping allowance".. hehex.. I realize a lot of people still love me. Hurhur...
Anyway, I'm gonna start packing my things. Cya guys in 5 days time !! ^^

2009-02-21T04:36:00.000-08:00

I'm bored of updating my usual life nowadays. Shall find something interesting to share with my dearest friends. ^^
Please get use to my randomness at time. =)

Now listening to 梁静茹's latest album "静茹&情歌别再为他流泪"

I would like to write some personal info here:
I have 5 email accounts altogether.
*But currently only 2 are active. One msn and my office outlook.
I'm now working in DHL global forwarding.

What do I do when I am:
Happy - I smile the whole day, tell my friends what is it all about.
Sad - Jio people sing KTV.
Emo - Cry n cry even louder!
Angry - Expressions on my face speaks the truth
Nervous - Stomachache
Worry - Meet up with friends and try to share my prob with them.

Current Status:
Health - I'm down with flu and serious coughing
Wealth - Total damage ( Leaving for HK this coming friday)
R/S - I'm a Single lady!
Education : Poly grad, applying uni soon.

I will never forget:
Dr Ng says "Most people know how to spit the phlagm, but there are minorities that dun, u are the minority =)"
Silia says " I like your eyes, its not big but it is fill with yan shen"
The most silly thing ever is to tell everyone i admire a doctor in CGH. Even my mum tries to help me. "girl, u go see that Doc, tell him ur eyes got prob, see who also not handsome, only see him handsome."
Des bought a bowl of fish porridge from downstairs of his house, took a bus to my house when I say I'm not feeling well and had not eaten dinner. He did not come in, but just handed me the porridge and left. Thanks so much.
Vincent's gym refers to "Guan Yin Ma".
Yonghua says " if i'm 马不知脸长, den u are 西瓜不知自己圆!"
J used to say 'baby rmb to eat, rmb to drink water, n rmb to miss me yo'
Uncle Jeric give me concert tickets whenever he have, I'm really grateful to his kindness. It has been yrs, it would cost me a bomb to pay for all these super nice concerts.
I have to thank friends like yan, ling, oinks... coz my job lobang all came from them. Yan brought me into Fujifilm, tho its only a part time job, but it survived me thru my poly yrs. Oinks intro me into DHL globalmail, from there, I have made some nice friends, and I learn about logistic. Hui Ling u're the one that bring me to where i am now. Thanks so much. Without ur reference, it won't be easy for me all these while.
I appreciate and is grateful to good things that had happened to me. Those bad past is for me to learn and keep moving =)

2009-02-14T03:31:00.000-08:00

mahjong session with the usual kaki =)
it has been secondary till now.. time flies...

my poly 2 best friends eveleen & hweelin.. i guess they loved the steamboat so much, hweelin is now pestering me to come my hse for dinner again.

shujun & tracie: my sec sch choir buddies.. lol.. whenever i thought about my sec sch days i'm always very happy =)

sisters forever shumin & kaiyan!! we're always so close yet so far huh...hurhur... its really difficult to build up strong friendship nowadays. Becoz permenance does not exist in this world. Everything will have beginnings and endings, u live n die... Treasue every moment my dearest friends!

I hope everyone will be able to live their life to the fullest, happy vday! ^^

2009-02-02T04:05:00.000-08:00

Reunion dinner with colleagues from DHL on Friday @ Xian De Lai steamboat (Liang Seah Street).Honored to have the 3 big boss around, but its not all of us which are there that night.

Loh Hei lo!!!!

Went to Top One KTV after that.. reach home 4am plus.. zZz..

大年初一 as usual, went to grandma's house 拜年... den at night watched "Love Matters" @ Cine with my dearest cousins...

Kai Ying (my coussie) & Shu Ying (me!)

Kai Min, Kai Ying, Shu Ying

Kai Min, Kai Ying, Shu Ying, Kai Jing

2009-01-26T07:05:00.000-08:00

while everyone's playing mahjong, watching tv, singing k, visiting relatives... i decide to update my "spider web growing" blog... hee... have been sooo busy with work that the only fun i had was using facebook.. LOL... anyway, Happy Niu Year all my dearest friends!!! I know its not gonna be a lucky yr for most of us.. (and dragon this yr is bad, 犯太岁eh!).. But i still wish everyone doing fine.. While receiving ang baos from our uncle and aunties, I realise very soon my batch of cousins would be same as their parents! Giving ang baos to their nephew and niece liao... Since i'm 1 of the youngest among them, i guess i still have a few more yrs more than them bah.. lol...
岁月不留人 ah~ this yr 21 liao eh!! omg...

ah ying & ah long @ EHub K Box ^^

Amy's 21st bday was real early. In fact, hers was the 1st that I attended this yr.

I swear I'm not gonna let my friends sabotage me like what Amy's friends did to her!! Omg.. damn jia lat for sure... She stayed in Swissotel, and they tied balloons on her, bring her down to Raffles City, with a board hanging in front of her "Can I get a Birthday Hug?". With this, she have to get 20 person to hug and sign on that board. Raffles City eh!! No play play okay!!

Ling, Me, Amy, Na

Her room was nice lah.. 33th Flr, got 2 balcony some more.. Facing the esplanade and Singapore Flyers.. Whee =)

2008-12-14T00:54:00.000-08:00

my favourite sotong Heng Hwee Lin!! hahas... spend my poly time mostly with her around... "a simple girl with naive thoughts" definitely suits her.

Went Orchard with Ling on Saturday.
GAP - up to 30% discount. MUST BUY!!
Bought a top for CNY liao. Hee ^^
Saw Mei Ting, Wee Hian & Vincent at Taka.
Neoprint @ Cineleisure.
Dinner @ Shokubo Heeren. Total bill $80.37!!! Nabay... Only a few dishes lor... Rather go eat buffet at Pariss...
Stroll along Orchard to PS. Home sweet home~ =)

staring at the huge Christmas Tree outside Paragon. Thinking will my X'mas wish be granted..Hmm....

Jingle bell X3 rawks,

jingle bell swings & jingle bell rings~

If u remember the advertisement from Coca Cola, the train with a lot of children passing by the snowy mountain range... Yea, i love that ad the most!!

my fav shot!!

Shokubo's mango ice kacang with rock melon on top -> yummilicious ^^

2008-12-06T00:46:00.000-08:00

So its weekend again, a long weekend... Monday is Hari Raya Puasa.
Tomorrow will be going to M'sia with Lawrenz and Alvin's group of friends. Meeting them at 6.40am @ Bugis. Hmmm... Hope Lawrenz can wake me up. Hur~
Tired.... I'm so tired of everything now. Even when I see my favourite food, listen to my fav songs, talking to my love ones, going to my fav malls, singing my fav songs EVERYTHING... I don't know why there is sucha sudden change happening, and I don't know what am I suppose to do to go back to my usual self. Taking a break? Watch a hilarious movie? Or maybe a few hours of effective sleeping will be fine. Hmmm.... Shu Ying is lost now. Lost for words, lost in direction in her life, lost in thoughts as well... She is simply lost in her on own world.

2008-12-05T09:02:00.000-08:00

Thursday 04 Dec '08

Its DHL's movie nite @ GV Vivo organised by DHL recreation club =)
Transport and buffet dinner were provided.
We watched Walt Disney Pictures "Bolt". Its a rather touching animation comedy, especially when it comes near to the end, Bolt actually saved his person Penny in a fire. And Rhino the hamster is damn cute lah!!!! Lol.... Overall I would rate it 4/5. Yea.... ^^
Saw some sneak preview such as"Hotel for dogs", "Bedtime Stories", "IGOR"...
Christmas coming again! Its the best time to gather ur close ones for a movie date =)

2008-12-01T08:03:00.000-08:00

10.30am - i snoozed the irritating hp alarm. Then incoming call came along,

Me: "hello...(zZz)"

XXX: "Hello, i'm calling from SPH to inform you that you have not been qualified for the next round in the 'Battle of Dynamic Duo'. Thanks for your participation. Bye bye."

Me: "Huh??... Orh... Bye." (Feeling a little confused by the person. Thought only groups that qualified would be called. Hmmm...)

Feelings: A bit expected actually, well. Not really feeling disappointed this time round, coz I really did not performed up to standard. Try harder next time lo... hahas... I'm still young anyway!! ^^

Work is as usual, lower volume than past few months. Lesser OT meaning lesser pay meaning I have to cut down on my expenses. Oh my god!! Festive season round the corner and I have to think twice whenever i shop for prezzies and clothes... Eeeee!!! This sucks!!

Dear Santa will you grant my wish?? I wish... and I sincerely wish...... *with my eyes close, hugging my beloved baby pooh bear and I then begin my dream~ zZz*

2008-11-30T04:55:00.000-08:00

so... Sunday afternoon, me and Ade went Chinatown Point's A&J studio for audition.

"Battle of The Dynamic Duo @ Chinatown Point"

-Performance duration is limited up to 1 min 30 sec per team.

-Judging criteria are as follow:

40% - Quality of Performance
30% - Rapport: the chemistry between both members
30% - Stage Presence: Confidence level on stage, ability to capture attention on stage and personal presentation (attire & make up)

-Top 24 teams will go through to the next round of preliminary.

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1st problem: Group Name?!? Because it was someone else who helped us registered for this competition, both of us absolutely have no idea what our group name is. End up it was listed as "Dash" in their list. Okay.. hmmm, I dunno how Mei Ting gotten this name... Maybe she had just put a ' - ' in the form, and they thought it was meant "Dash". Hahas!

2nd problem: Music Volume!! There are total of 7 person excluding us in the audition room. 3 judges, 2 timer, 1 music man and 1 more lady dunno do what one. Lol. The music is real soft!!! We simply can't hear much, and due to that... I'm off beat.. damn sad... but manage to catch up. Phew....

I think other team all sounded so much nicer than us lor... Some even brought their own instruments with them. But well, but never mind, shall wait for news. Be it good or bad, just take it as an experience and fun. ^^ Can see from Ade's face she's real nervous, and keep talking rubbish. Hee....

Anyway, I sprained my right toe not knowingly when.But yea, just got sprained. Hurhur.

FYI: I have never been disqualified in any auditions before. Please dun let this be the 1st time!! = [ PLZZZZZZ~!!!

2008-11-28T22:21:00.000-08:00

Friday after work went to ECP's Beach Cabana slack.. hehe...
it was ard 1 am plus when we reach.. so scruffy murphy irish bar was going to close... end up we walked a bit further down to Beach Cabana...
there was this UFO machines still operating... so we went to play there... hehe.. i spend only $10 to catch 2 bears!! while serene spent 50 plus to get 3 bears.. LOL....^^
would like to go Wala Wala at Holland V next time.. heard that its a very nice place...
Tmr is the audition liao.. but i'm not prepared!!! =(

my 2 bears~!!

Benjamin and me...

Ben, Susu, me, Serene

Abner, me, JX

me, Susu

2008-11-25T06:15:00.000-08:00

MC today... boos... but rather happy.. coz at least i had some time to practice with adeline. hehe ^^ will be joining the singing contest organised by kbox... this sunday audition.. hope can at least go thru a few stage,, if not really damn pai seh sia...
saw this guy which i used to have a crush on him last time... this time round, the feeling is still the same!! omgomgomg... does that mean this is not a crush? sigh.... i really dunno.. but very glad to see him as lively as ever.. =) the best thing is that he keeps repeat that he likes me since last time... but i just ask him to shut the f*ck up..hahas...
well, shall let fate decide...

too little time for too many things

2008-11-15T00:41:00.000-08:00

due to US economy, it has lead to many MNCs and banks to whine up their business and exit the US market. Same goes to the company that i'm working at. So it put us employees at a risk when they talks about APAC regions. Well, but internal letters and emails are going around saying that we are not yet affected, so no employees will get dismissed from this economy crisis YET...
sigh.... too little time, too many things to be acomplished. I wanna further my education, learn driving [finally], go for holidays [Japan, Rome & Turkey on priority], i'm lack of time & most importantly MONEY! :)
ok fine, shall stop my naggings.
Friday night after work- (Shan, Lilian, Jorine, Sam, Xing, Serene, Qiu Wei, Eve, Dylan, Abner)
Upper Serangoon Rd = Teohew Porridge for supper
Mt Faber = The Jewel Box
^^
going to meet them tonight again for movie "Madagascar" and might be going Balcony after that.
*whee* ^^

2008-11-07T10:08:00.000-08:00

CHALET @ PASIR RIS COSTA SANDS 31st Oct - 2 Nov
yea yea... have a super duper fun weekend =)
took lots of pix... just gonna upload some of them... hmm.. i love my colleagues ^^

benjamin ~ he is cute.. sing well too .. admire him =)

went to watch sun rise on the last day on chalet with jorine as there were no place for the 2 of us to sleep le.. LOL.. all drop dead and they formed an orchestra "zZzZz" in the room..

Masquerade Bbq

all in~ !! except me.. coz i'm at Peishan's birthday bbq when this photo is taken.. so sad =(

jun xing and sam's birthday cake =)

this stupid guy went to hide under the table and kena spray till he nearly can't breathe.. LOL.. while the smarter one ran out of chalet~ hahas..

jorine's pressie (the tigger with flower is from me while the t shirt is frm her sis)

yayness~!

at the poolside, while jorine is so drunk.. we entertained her for 3 hours plus before she agree to go back to our chalet.. she insist that we must all drink finish that bottle of peach vodka and southern comfort before we can all go back .. omg... tiring~ and she's so heavy lah...

and while entertaining her, we played in the pool as well.. hehe =)

2008-11-05T07:53:00.000-08:00

Saturday - 1st Nov
Was at chalet with colleagues, so went over to Pei Shan's 21st Birthday BBQ =)
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MA ZI!!!! lol...
i'm very glad to see my ex colleagues and mentor that night. They are the people from DHL Global Mail whom i 1st met after my O levels. It was my 1st part time job introduced by oinky pearlyn. Hmmm... pay wasn't very fantastic tho ($5.50 per hour) and mostly are guys coz its warehouse. But i survived... with all the dust and pallets of mails...becoz i'm not those very girlish type of girls who dun carry things, who minds working in non aircon environment, cannot wear skirts to work... =) And even when i went into poly, i still go back to work during holidays. Thank them for welcoming me back. ^^ They have came along with me this far... i guess.. they still will be...

me. jernel

alfred... my mentor.. =)

Riding back to my chalet lo~ ~ ~

2008-11-02T18:51:00.000-08:00

Friday 31st Oct'08 - Halloween Night (Oink's Bday)
Went Mbar to find oinky. Bought her pressie from SK. Hmmm, hope she will like it. Took train to Tanjong Pagar and while i was busy finding my ez-link, some devils pop out from the side and i go "ARGH!!!!! *bish*" i bang into the control station wall... LOL... well... its okay, just very throw face for that few seconds... hahas.
As usual at Mbar, sing song, drinking, play cards...Got to know a pretty girl Shermaine =)

Sharmaine & me

me & Donghao

May, Oinks, Sotong, Pauline, infront me and Shermaine

Happie Bday Oinky Oinks!!

2008-10-28T11:53:00.000-07:00

my love always...
she's my queen... and i'm her little princess =)
missing you Jessica zhang!

2008-10-26T06:27:00.000-07:00

26.10.2008
Sundays are for family gatherings and outings. Love to be together with mummy and daddy. =)
Morning had dim sum , then we went to visit farmway's pets hotel. Puppies for sale there is really cheap and many different breed. Lunch at railway station, and i find there rather heritage.
I love Sundays. <3

2008-10-26T01:00:00.000-07:00

25.10.2008
went for facial and then hair cut... hee.. once again, my hair is super short !
as usual, every year i attend yes 933 hit award =)
this year i brought ah long with me... well, the crowd this yr is much lesser compared to last yr, but the level of noise wun lose to last yr.. lol... and the guy sitting beside me was actually one of the contestants from campus superstar, seems to be very close with chen diya... (as i heard him calling her mummy) well... he is quite good looking lah, but i have no idea wad's his name.. LOL... the girl that was with him is really fanatic... every award that involve jay chou she will shout "周杰伦" so loud... till one point when it was silent. and she shout, till there's echo in the stadium... everyone stared at her... even the emcee was looking at our direction... omg..... pai seh sia!!
ok nvm... but it was fun lah.. enthusiasm... =)
some pictures...

friendly and fun DJ

me, ah long

derrick 何维健

he sang "你走天桥我走地下道" so nice~! he's cute... =)

刘力扬 & yoga 林宥嘉 singing "传说" and "Ti Amo" which original singer is 刘力扬 and Aaron, but i think yoga sang better =)

刘力扬!!!!!!!!

omg.. i love mayday 五月天!

"离开地球表面" JUMP!

梁静茹 - she sang "崇拜" and "会吸呼的痛"

can't really remember who took which award, but local awards i rmb. LOL...

Best local song composer is 李伟菘 - "收藏 " by 萧敬腾 .

Best local lyrics : 小寒 - 达尔文 by Tanya 蔡健雅

Best local singer: 蔡健雅

2008-10-19T00:08:00.000-07:00

my office table =)
"indulge in the little things in life!"
that photo frame is of much precious memories to me, given by crystal on the last day of attachment.

Last friday wan Daniel Noel Tan's last day, took a last shot of him at his desk.

group photo with Daniel. He is going into NS next week. All the best to him. And also wanna wish him and eve loving forever~ ~ ~ =p

Introduce to you guys some interesting and simple text:

This is my wallpaper for my handphone. "Miss Bitch" ^^

2008-10-18T11:36:00.000-07:00

saturday is relaxing and enjoyable..
morning went Bendemeer market with family for breakfast, then headed to chua chu kang "qian hu fish farm" , "Hay's goat dairy farm" , some vegetable plantations, and Dad actually plucked some rambutans for me and mum.. yay!! its sweet and juicy.. =) lunch at Woodlands town centre market. Back home took a nap... Hui ling's msg woke me up... she's bored.. so am i... she came over to my hse in the evening... den we went 201 market to search for food...

char kway teow, oyster omelette, "see hum", and carrot cake =) yum yum..
the see hum was really nice lah!! dip in the special chilli, sour spicy with fresh see hums!!

walked around to look for vcd, initial plan was to ton overnight watching dvds.. but was a little late and shops are all closed. Happen to pass by this "live" show... so we stood there for a while..

bought some food home for mum... still very energetic, and we changed our plan of watching movie.. we went Mustafa instead.. LOL...

me being the more sua gu one... have nvr been to mustafa before... was happy and excited..

ling lead the way.. and we went in to squeeze with the people inside... to my horror, people there dun buy things in a few pieces of pkts.. they buy in BOXES!! one whole trolley full of the same product, and another with the other type of product... wtf?!? ok fine, maybe i really sua gu lor, but... they do sell deer meat over there... which i will nvr see in other supermarkets in Singapore. And also goat's leg, lungs etc... nearly fainted when i pass by that section ...*hairs all standing* den finally we saw something interesting... a nvr heard brand's potato chip.. with "cumin flavour"... hahas... and i bought it! wondering how "cumin" taste like.. LOL..
shopped around.. saw one of my fav bear... CARE BEAR!!! big care bears available at Mustafa... surprising lor...

managed to catch last bus 23 back to tamp interchange... ran for that bus.. lucky the uncle is nice enough to wait for us.. we ran across the traffic light and ran a distance more before we finally reach the bus stop... *chuan*.. phew~
got a very shocking news on the bus ride home... from a guy which i know barely a month...
din noe how to react... so i chose to be humble, thanked him for his compliment...
home sweet home with ling =)

random thoughts

2008-10-16T05:28:00.000-07:00

hmmm .. wonder how others feel about me... daniel said he think i should smile more, coz when i dun, i look rather stress @ work... and i dun understand why my buddy treats me like this.. its like, he helps me out in things ( dunno is being forced by my leader or he ownself helpful ), but he doesn't seems to talk to me much... (compare to tweety or even the temps).. other then work, we hardly communicate... even when i see him online and i tried to ask him how's his day etc, he dun seem to reply me... sob....
i'm somebody that gets irritated or upset when others ask around whether wanna da bao or want go anywhere and din ask me... i'm very sensitive to all this questionings going around... dunno why also... i felt hurt when 'someone" jio the others to go for lunch but not me... sigh...
finding myself leading a meaningless life now.. enjoying the fun.. but i dun think its a meaningful one... trying to be a better person... reducing the amount of vulgarities, not to gamble anymore, visit pubs and clubs less often... yea... is that what a better person is all about? i dun wan others to see me as a typical "ah lian ah huay" girl.... i dun involve in quarrels and fights FOR SURE... nvr ever in my life... i'm always the peace maker... yea... dun judge me by my looks please... coz looks are deceiving....

2008-10-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

jordan and daniel's farewell...
steamboat @ Bugis, followed by k @ top one...
lots of fun~ !!

ben & jordan

so many of us that night... noisiest crowd in the restaurant... lol

snap by jorine... while i snapping her as well.. =)

group photo~!!

he's definitely cute and handsome =)

2008-10-12T04:32:00.000-07:00

time to post my 20th celebration pix lo !!
hehe... many thanks to oinks, ade, amy, ling and alvina... =)
i'm glad to have u guys in my life...
thanks for all e bday wishes and pressies too...
enjoyed my big 2 arrival... i love my life now... i think i have met lots of nice friends, colleagues... tho i haven met my bai ma wang zi yet... BUT, i'm contented and dun think a guy is necessary =) [trying to console myself] hurhur... well, tho i hope to have one too, but thats not my bday wish yea! =)
there are people whom i missed quite a bit...people like isabella salim(in daytona), jessica zhang(in vancouver), my sis (in shanghai)....

ling, me, na, amy

miss heng hwee lin.... a.k.a sotong... LOL...

i love my balloon~!

shelter under alvina's shawl ...

"happy birthday shuing & alvina"

angels of my life.. u girls rawk ^^

cutie amy merry =)

ME!!!!

oinky, ade

charles and me

DROP DEAD.....

2008-10-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

DONG!! DONG!! DONG!!

the clock strike 12... and TSY says hello to the big 2 !!

well..... TSY is no longer in her teens... one year older already =)

whee~!! thanks to yan.... Happy 10 yrs friendship, i appreciate...

thanks to naveen (my india colleague) for making the effort to call me even tho i'm on leave today .. =) dun come look for me to pay ur phone bill will do...

thanks to pearlyn ... for being the 1st person to wish me happy birthday at 12am...

wheee... TSY is 20 liao....

2008-10-06T01:35:00.000-07:00

Genting Trip 3rd Oct - 5Th Oct ' 08

Yea, sort of a birthday trip for me =) with colleagues from DHL... Total 9 pax, and we had a lot of fun this 3 days.
Friday night meet at Golden Mile complex, 10.30pm bus came...
by 5am we reached Genting and put our baggage at the bell counter, ate mac breakfast, slacked a while.. 8am we went to play outdoor theme park already. LOL.. yay!!!

lunch we had dim sum... check-in at 2pm.. all tired... sleep.. 6pm meet up again for bowling and dinner! =) play arcade a while... den we went coffee bean to chill... they bought me all the different type of cheesecakes available.. (as they know i love to eat cheesecakes) hehe...
omg... super big thanks to them.. sang that happy birthday song so loudly that everyone in-house sang tgt... it ended with a "HUAT AH!!" and the rest all started laughing... =))
i just love this kind of gathers and laughters ... nice.... =)

the 3 hot babes... wendii, shan, jorine...

holy shit... SAM HO!!! he force me to did that to him... argh!!!!! fucking funny... every passerby was looking and of coz laughing at the 2 idiots.... omg...

group photo!!

no candles? lighter will do =)

yea, happy trip =)

2008-10-06T00:48:00.000-07:00

Night before Hari Raya, went to watch "House Bunny" @ GV Tamp, den went to Balcony to chill... reach home 8am.. LOL... woke up by shan's msg at 11am... went to watch "Mama Mia" in the afternoon, Kenny Rogers for dinner... 2 days with my colleagues.. FUN!! hehe... guess they are the new batch of "friends" that will be close to me and understand me bah.. day and night we are tgt... even weekends.. they are gonna know me best...

2008-09-29T08:02:00.000-07:00

Saturday 27.09.2008
BBQ @ Pasir Ris Park [DHL team building]

Day before, went parkway to buy camera at Harvey, canon ixus 80. Bought at cost price with 4GB card, screen protector, case, 2 battery and 3 yrs warranty. Hehe.. pretty good deal...
Hmmm.. Saturday itself is fun and tiring... i planned the games and forfeit as well.. hurhur...
Truth or Dare end up becoming kissing session, well.. pictures of that is to be posted later on.. lol..

Demonstration time....

yea!!

Happy moments like this....

team builiding!!!

2008-09-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

Saturday was a fun yet tiring day. Went Shell Bukom Island (take ferry from pasir panjang ferry terminal) to help Shell do stockcount. Which is so DUSTY & HUMID!!! omg.... we paired up ourselves, and were given gloves, masks. Its a rare chance that people can go into Bukom as its not open for all unless authorised.
Safety is really an important there, as its all petroleum, chemicals fumigation etc. Lighters are strictly not allowed to be carry around, and mobile phones as well.
We were given very clear instructions before we start our stockcounting, as there's a chance of leakage of oil or poisonous chemicals, everyone is suppose to stay calm and evacuate immediately. Sounded so scary... indeed, it is... hurhur.... Nice experience after all... but i hope there won't be another round in Bukom. Its a "forbidden" island for me.... lol...

2008-09-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

so long never take picture with my darling le... yea, sotong heng hwee lin.. LOL... =)
took this on the bus to simei for lunch.... ling, the naive girl that get so easily cheated by others... know her from poly.. and now we work tgt in DHL, same level, same department, her desk juz behind mine =) luv her deep deep...
today went out with jiawei, benny, vincent , suppose to meet yonghua too, but end up he din turn up... =( went downtown, played arcade with them, saw adeline, meiting kris tt gang of pple as well... and wei lun... woah, he gave me a plastic bag full of sweets =) thanks so much dear...
hmmm.. walking with 3 botaks look so strange... but not bad lah, all 3 are fit guys.. LOL...
life is getting more n more boring....

2008-09-14T00:53:00.000-07:00

xiao jing teng's concert session at Dragonfly!! oh my oh my, he is so sexy lah!!! another shy guy on earth =)

It's Joshua's farewell and therefore we took a group photo ^^

Nite out at Dragonfly ~

2008-09-11T10:18:00.001-07:00

seems like i have changed quite a bit, i dun like to listen to music as much as last time.... coz almost 70% of the songs playing on radio are so hurtful for me. Reminds me of past memories, which i won't forget. Every song that she sang to me, ringtones that used represent me... all these memories are still staying with me every minute every second. I'm just another fool after all. There is no everlasting, all that you wanted is fun and excitement.
TSY is gonna go thru this painful process and hopefully able to find a better one.

2008-09-06T22:26:00.000-07:00

random thoughts:
misunderstandings are so common, learn to communicate well
everyones thinking differs, what seems right to you might not be to some others
always protect urself in any situation before saving the rest... coz when u can't even save your own, nobody else could...

Weekends
Last week friday, went Chijmes with colleagues (got drunk) den saturday meet eagle go Sim Lim repair his comp, den go downtown k...
Sunday went shopping @ Bugis with my dear girls Eve and Yan, @ nite go dragonfly with them and Vicky babe...
This week I more guai liao... friday after work meet yilong go orchard, den nite go K @ cine till 6am with colleagues... tts all... sat and sun stay at home.. lol...

same as yan, I have sign up for the saving plan that eve recommended. Hmmm, its rather nice to have ur own fix savings especially at our age now. Saving is a good habit, too bad i did not start it at a younger age. But well, I guess its stil not too late to start now. =)
My neighbour is going Dubai this year end, planning to join them... Coz her son is in Dubai (accomodation settled), i juz need to pay for my air tix .. *wee* ^^ and she say Egypt is nearby there, might be going as well... YEAH!! can go there look for mummies liao.. LOL.... and see pyramids... ^^
so i guess on top of my fix savings, i must have additional savings for my air tix lo... SAVE SAVE SAVE!!
cut down on my KBox, sumptious meals, shopping dates, and chilling nite out... haiz.... nvm.. all these temptations will resume after my holiday trip... yay!!! ^^
but before my Dubai trip, yilong is planning a m'sia trip in oct... so... more more trips to come!!! =)

2008-08-23T23:28:00.001-07:00

time for some updates... yea... i've got so much back log to clear ... and i'm basically doing 2 persons job becoz my buddy went for re-service and i have to cover his workload... HAIZ
everyday working till 7am 8am is no joke... and finally... ying fall sick le...
saturday early morning i'm still at work, vommited a few times cannot tahan anymore go see 24 hrs clinic. Gotten some prescriptions from doctor and i went home take le rest... din manage to slp coz its really too painful... till saturday night i felt situation not improving at all... bo bian, call dad to fetch me to A&E... and i'm super dehydrated.... the doctor injected me with some rehydration salts... after which he took 1 tube of my blood.. haiz... gotten 4 days mc... wee!!! =) and a lot of medications =(
time for some good rest liao...

2008-08-17T07:10:00.001-07:00

I hate myself so much... as much as i wish i just die...
jane say to be contented and u wun suffer...
but i'm too competitive to be contented...
Yan say she's lost, i think i;m even worse... coz i dun face the fact that i'm lost too...
Jealousness overwhelmed
anger and frustration coming along...
nothing seems to be smooth sailing for me
health getting poorer
loneliness up ahead...
i'm tired of everything, i juz wanna cry it all out sometimes..
i'm juz a 疯子...
it has always been a one sided thing....

2008-08-15T10:24:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday is DHL's Volunteer Day...
Took many pictures, but some are not allowed to be posted...
hmmm... went to Telok Blangah Hill for a morning walk.. hehex..
1st time there... nice scenery and environment...

Its a half day event, had a buffet lunch at Hort Park, a gardening hub at Telok Blangah..

had lot of fun on Sunday..

Wanted to catch a movie at Cathay but fully booked...

End up taking a cab from town to airport T3 Harry's Bar and chill....

Evening go home mahjong... YAY!!

That's how i spend my Sunday... hehex....

2008-08-10T09:46:00.000-07:00

她让你憔悴许多她
让你不知所措
她一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

2008-08-09T09:38:00.000-07:00

This week is a very busy week.... everyday work till 5am den go home... High volume...

Monday is Hui Ling's birthday... Celebrated in office... still owe her pressie and dinner... haha... guess gotta wait for end of month den can le...

Birthday girl with her birthday cake... =)

L to R : Alexandra, Hui Ling, Eveleen, Sze Yuin

Tuesday: Went T3 to send Isabella off.... so now she's at LA with her grandma... and going to New York and then Florida... see her in 3 yrs time...

2008-08-02T11:41:00.001-07:00

Just realize that Birdie is still reading my blog.. hurhur.. thanks Birdie... yea... we will be buddies foreva.... wish you best of luck for everything... =)
Isabella Salim Jin Hui
a girl I wanna thank, I wanna love... She is one of my best pal in life... Taught me so much...
She will be going to US on Tuesday... seriously i hate this... but for her bright future... she have to go... and will only be back in 3 yrs time... yea... 3 yrs.... thats SO LONNGG!! sigh....
I want to get a new life... how great it will be if everyone of us have a "reset" button on our body... just have to press it to start anew... hmmm... I dunno wad i want...
I am problematic at times, but please dun dun care about me... I can be attention seeking, thats to alert you that you have been neglecting me for too long and i can't take it.... I can be irritating at times because I'm feeling bored.... Dun tell me that I'm juz finding excuses for myself to give each of us one more chance.... coz i'm not defending myself, i'm juz reasoning my own actions...
so please dun hurt me.... u should noe how much u meant to me....

2008-07-23T12:22:00.000-07:00

Sunday is meant to rest... but evening time Amos called to ask me go K at night, i was at home and don really feel like going.. end up cj say "yin go den i go.." .... win liao lor....
left without much choice... i went Chinatown to meet up funan ex-colleagues(Sam, uncle bernard, amos, freddy, susan, jack, and ping.. and of coz baby cj.." ... Go eat durian and sing song...
everytime go out with them felt so pai seh... they wun let me pay... be it on food or on singing..
Took a cab back with amos... he paid as well... haiz...
Monday comes again... and its all about work and stress ... haiz... jia you jia you... ^^ nitez world..

2008-07-19T23:48:00.000-07:00

had been super demorilzed at work.... everyday complain to oinks abt my job...haiz...
den finally weekend came.... meet oinks, cecline, and kenneth go k! yay~ ~ ~ had fun...=)
dinner wanted to have steamboat, but it was fully booked.. so we went Phin's steak house instead... woooo~ the steak with red wine juice sauce is really great! and the beer battered fish ... super crispy lar!!
after dinner went to Mbar with them... Oinks open Martell.... haiz... a bit worry for her health le... had been drinking so fierce lately... and smoke so much...

me n oinks
now my wish is to faster get used to my job, dun make anymore mistakes... and be strong no matter wad... Shuying dun wanna cry again...

2008-07-13T02:33:00.000-07:00

ying is getting from bad to worse.. LOL...
she has gotten herself a pair of levis specs, and a new phone Sony Ericsson G900 in one week.
Saturday afternoon went chinatown with mum, and i bought 2 dresses there, at night went drinking with pearlyn and her friends at MBar... its fun.. but high expenses.. hurhur...
now that my mum and dad had "allowed" me to go out as and when i want... i felt so much more easier communicating with them. But they are worried for my health, so ask me not to drink.
So next time drinking sessions shall be called as la kopi sessions ok? hehex...
Reached home at 5am. =)

2008-07-05T09:34:00.000-07:00

friday i was sicked, din go to work... and at night, isabella say wanna have a meet up . so i went airport to meet her for dinner... end up she missed her last train back home.. so we went tamp interchange's mac and rot till morning 5.30am the next day.. we chatted a lot.. i really love her so much as a friend.. she din wan me to send her off in aug, coz she might cry.. actually i also a bit scare i would.. so we make it a deal, i wun see her off at the airport... she;s going to US florida to further studies.. will be back after 3 yrs... sadded...
my closest friends are all not with me anymore..
jessica - vancouver , isabella - florida, my sis - shanghai
wad's this... haiz...
saturday woke up at 12pm... saw vincent's msg...tt guy booked out wanna meet up, so fast fast get myself ready go meet him... tt botak man.. LOL.. getting fitter lorr... really NS makes a difference...
3.45pm meet up with hui ling, tgt we go ndp'08 1st show!! wee~ ^^ *happy happy*
this yr's performance is so nice!! and poor crystal was jealous coz she can't get the tix... hurhur..
will try to help her find.. hmmm... thx to hui ling and her bf.. who took part tts y got free tix...
i simply fell in love with the "black knights" [ the elite team of airforce, 7 fighter planes]
and the fireworks was great!! i've recorded the whole thing! ^^

the marching contingents... i've always liked to see uniform groups marching... hahs! dunno why also.. hmmm... and the SAF band was great too!

singapore flyers is juz at the side, and the firing of the 21 canons came from there as well.. =)

love's in the air!! all thanks to the black knights for forming such a nice heart shape on the sky of marina bay...

before we leave, we make it a memorable day!!
the night was still young, went to marina square, and it took us at least 2 rounds there to decide wad to eat for dinner.. end up we settled at carls junior... ling's bf came to meet us after tt... took train home... hehex.. i enjoyed very much.. thanks girl! =)

2008-07-01T07:09:00.000-07:00

photos of Abner's 24th birthday
Location - Cineleisure K Box

daniel the guy in white shirt in the photo is the poor boy who got drunk unknowingly..

Abner the birthday boy...

lol.. flasher-to-be ....

huishan - my pretty team leader... ^^

sleepy yo...
yar, there are more people actually, but lazy intro liao.. lol...
sad ling nv go with us that day... next time must drag her along.. STOP EATING CRABBIES!! LOL...
Each day past so fast at work... i really appreciate ryan, who is my shi fu currently at work... dunno if i'll cry on his last day of work... tot he will be such a gd colleague and friend as well...
den following is jordan & daniel.. both leaving in october... jordan gg back to sch, daniel gg ns... i'm predicting MLS team to be much more quieter den now... sadded =[
abner will still be around, but dunno how long... haiz... trying not to think too much.. also dunno how long i will be able to tahan.. hahas!! the main problem now is OT... but i'm trying to be more career oriented... so that i will have lesser programs, more time at work... more $$ !! LOL..
no lar, i'm stepping into another stage in life, the working stage... education has come to a pause for now... hmmm... so must adapt to the change in lifestyle...
a note to all : do ur best for every matter, so that u wun have any regrets! smilez yo ^^

2008-06-29T05:40:00.000-07:00

busy busy busy.... working as usual, got lots of things to take note and learn, to be cautious with..
friday was our period end day, whereby we only need to do filing and update reports... it was one of our colleague's bday as well.. so went kbox after work... open 3 bottle, martell, chivas and brandy... beer 4 jug... some were high, some were drunk, i'm sober... hurhur.. coz din really drink tt much... tho i think i finish half of the brandy in the end... 1st time i sing k until 6am... so shiok... lol.. with no phone calls from mum!! ^^
sunday afternoon went for my facial appt, den met up with ashley for a drink... she came back for holiday from aust, going back in 2 wks time... so happy to meet up with her, and she is so happie to see me as well... hehex... gonna meet her for dinner before she leave... den went funan find my dear girl... she help ashley fix her ipod... 1st time realise my dear girl is clever de.. hahas!
tmr gonna work again, but maybe not going to do OT, coz dear girl tmr off day... might be catching a movie at night.. ^^

me n hui ling... love her lots... saturday bring her airwaybills come my hse to do sorting... lol... she is a happy little princess, found her prince le.. living happily ever after.. hahas! happy for her..

my girl colleagues... hehex...

2008-06-23T08:12:00.000-07:00

Saturday reached office at 1pm... and stayed till sunday morning 4.30am...it was raining, dad came to fetch me back, was rather touched, he woke up so early to come bring me home...=]
Sunday concussed... need a proper rest... a new week ahead.. gonna be a tough one again...
Monday is shit... my head spin like mad... OT till 10pm, cannot take it anymore... come home.. now going to rest.. nitez world..

2008-06-20T09:32:00.000-07:00

Phewww.... Finally I have the time tio update my blog...
Hmmm, i got into DHL Forwarding as a customer service coordinator, but it got nothing to do with complains and call transferring. LOL... Its handling of documents... shipments and suppliers basically. FYI, my working hours are not as wad u guys think (8.30 to 5.30) daily...
1st day of work, i went at 8am, and leave at 10pm.... 2nd day 8am till 4am the next day... And i only reached at 1pm for work the following and work to 11.30pm... lots and lots of OT awaiting for me... supposedly 5 day week, due to high volume of shipments to be cleared, i have to go back tmr (saturday) as well.. and if i dun clear them, sunday is activated too... now i only have a wish, that is to stay healthy... ^^
I'm happy with my job, hurhur.. coz OT after 10pm can claim cab fare.. LOL... so my basic transport now is taxi... =] and it has a full medical coverage and insurance... I have a very fun, bonded, spontaneous and "ah beng" team... they simply can't speak a sentence w/o and vulgarity contents... even to our suppliers and customers... hurhur... wtf is so normal, scolding ur father mother is the least already.. LOL... i can't imagine a few mths down the road, when u all see me and i speak the way like them ...
alright, i shall update again soon, its time for me to slp le... =)) nitex loves!!

2008-06-15T12:23:00.000-07:00

saturday lunched @ Streets HK Cafe ( Downtown East)... the food there really is not bad.. worth trying... pei mummy shop shop a while ntuc den go home le..slacked at home watch tv...
sunday night went Dragonfly with baby vick... Love her so much... =) Its Ladies Night... tho st james beside is having gay's night... woohoo~! so stun... macho guys driving sports car... walked in holding another guy's hand... damn heart pain sia... so shuai!! y wanna be gay?? f***ing ass holes is SO PAINFUL CAN?!? its no joke... *shake head*
anyway, i quite like Dragonfly ba, mandarin pop live performance, can hear my favourite songs and canto pop as well... luv one of the guitarist... so fascinated by him... woohoo~ =)
shall visit there more often... There's another one called Movieda... also not bad.. the live band perform more of country jazz... people there dance waltz, no joke.. they are people who really can dance~ unlike us shake ur booty~ lols...

[不想爱你或爱他, 我只想做自己..]

2008-06-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

Bangkok trip is cancelled.. super sadded...
Vick's passport was going to expire, and wasn't allowed to make any overseas trip. new passport will take 2 weeks to be ready. =(
Went DHL Global Forwarding for interview juz now, was a successful one! Going to sign the employment letter on Monday. Hmmm, bought 3 dresses on the way home too.
Guess the bangkok trip will have to wait after vick start school bah... go over the wkend... hmmm... I'm gonna start working again very soon... with a group of fun people... yay!!
wish me luck people... =)

2008-06-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

can wishes be granted??
hmm.. i wanna be happy everyday...
i wanna be pampered and loved ...
presently:
i need pain killers... to cure the pain in me...
bad flu and fever is giving me problems sleeping..
heart aches cannot be cured at the moment...
*praying hard* let me recover fast fast so that i can enjoy my holiday plzZz~
To Vincent Kwa Wei Long:
dear brother,
tomorrow is ur enlistment date le, other den good luck is still good luck.. hope u can get use to everything inside... BE A MAN !! lolz~
i'm not sure for how long u are gonna go MIA in part of my life, but i know tts only a short while right? GYM will never let us be apart for too long one.. so u beta survive inside army arh... LOL... TAKE CARE!!

2008-06-08T09:55:00.001-07:00

saturday went K with vincent in the afternoon... evening go east coast meet up with eve, min and yanz... hehex.. celebrate yanz birthday... bought a shawl for her as pressie... =] we ate at wakaru jap restaurant, den went to one of the pub there to chill..

tts all for saturday program...

sunday's program... i shall talk abt it in my next post... LOL.. shag liao.. nitez world...

2008-06-06T05:09:00.000-07:00

Backed from cruise!!
It doesn't seem to make me happier by staring at the big sea out there. Once again, i'm speechless of my own feelings and mind. Contradicting is too complicated to be understood. I hope to be alone, yet I dun wanna be neglected. Care is needed, but restriction is not welcomed. Making a fool of myself, told others i have diff tots about life and relationships, tts becuz i wish to be different, i wish to be the noble one. Can I make it?? Yet to find out tho.
Why do people fall in love and den out of love? The reason that brings them tgt might be the reason that brings them apart as well. Compromising is essential, but acceptance is imp too. Instead of trying to change him/her, y not accept for who he/she is.
I can never understand how this game is being played, and can never measure how well i have played.

2008-06-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

healthy lifestyle starts today!
went tampines giant look for eveleen..
Lunched @ IKEA [ swedish meatball ]
shop shop ard giant, sadded.. the 500GB hdd was out of stock already.
Came home get changed and went jogging with dad.
Dinner - 1 green apple & 1 red apple
Gonna prove tt i can slim down lor~ gogo shuying!!

2008-06-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

So.... teach me how to rot at home... i simply can't stay home for more den 24 hrs, its so bored!!
i have my psp on my bed, snacks in the kitchen, comp on 24hrs, story books tt i can nv finish reading, fashion magazines & newspapers on rack, but somehow i juz dun pick any of it. i juz wanna go out!! Be it supermarket or coffee clubs, i will go. So, whats wrong with me? Hmmm, it bothers me too...
Prata @ Jalan Kayu with oinks & donghao... So long nv see donghao, can't recognise him lor... have a nice chat with the 2 of them too. Ordered so much, *burps* the mushroom cheese prata is hella BIG! But i think its only "okok" standard ba... Still prefer upper thomson road's crispy prata.. hehex.. shall bring them there next time (provided i noe how to go).

2008-05-31T05:42:00.000-07:00

Euphoria camp '08
Too bad i din get to finish the whole 3 days of the programmes. Coz i really can't get use to it ba, haha! Have to wake up at 5.30am, sleep at 10pm everyday. I miss my comp, miss my bed...
But i love to play with the kids in the camp! So full of energy all of them, tho some are really naughty and playful, make me angry... hmmm.. but nvm la, good training for me...

paying attention

lunch time~!

BBQ @ nite

yar, this is only the 1st day of the camp....
Good news!! I've finally received my new NOW card from UOB... yay!! hooray!
hmmm, quite a but of benefits... =]]
shall start using soon , hehex..

爱情这首歌你跟我Key不合

泪已够别再说

累已够别挽留

2008-05-27T12:39:00.000-07:00

for you:

一定是我不够好所以你才想要逃

逃到天涯和海角躲在别人的怀抱

你能不能不管过得好不好

不要故意躲开不让我知道

只要你过得很好什么都已不重要

我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼

我每一夜不管你知不知道

傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷

希望你过得好
Thanks for giving me the sweet memories.

是你让我懂得爱
Love is not about being together.

分开也是另一种明白
Perhaps all good things really will come to an end.

2008-05-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

Mac 24 Hrs delivery save my life!!
Omg, i'm famished... now waiting for my chicken foldover, nuggets and apple pie to arrive =]
My clock has been turned upside down now, juz like i'm living in the states. LOL. Yesterday went cruise with yonghua and mum, spent the night playing in the casino, its tiring but fun, make lots of winnings at 1st, but end up losing back, hahas.. never mind, its juz for leisure purposes. =] Came back this afternoon, slept at 5plus, now wake up in the middle of the night, feeling a little unwell, slight fever & feel like vomiting... sigh... gonna fall sick soon i guess...
Need to change back to regular timing liao, if not, i'm gonna be vampire soon.

2008-05-26T01:58:00.000-07:00

Sunday nite program: Mahjong. Wif yonghua & jeslyn. Poor thing yonghua lost his racket and shoe on the bus journey to my hse. Overslept, rush to get down the bus, and forget to take his precious racket and shoe bag. Haiz... feel sad for him somehow...
Next movie for look out!! yay... gonna watch it with..... hmmm.. havent decide yet. lol! but definitely not the one i longed for anymore. Like a sadded. =[[

*Sandy & Me*

She's 100% CUTE! xiao mei mei who is straight forward and a bit of "ya ya" pattern. LMAO. well, but i like her a lot... =] This pic taken on my last day of work (Saturday). I officially quit my job lo! yay! enjoying my "holidays" now... =]

2008-05-25T00:52:00.000-07:00

Friday nite @ Timbre with shumin's group of friends is kinda of weird but fun?
LOL..get to know new pple here and there... but the sad thing is after tt i got myself drunk with juz 3 glass of drinks.. tts really stupid.. dunno wad happen also... hurhur~ well... no face liao lor..
its photo time!!

this guy is rather cute and handsome.. david... with weitang's face being cut half.. LOL...

he took this himself.. ZI LIAN!!

2 jasmine(s) , shumin and me

someone actually suggested to use mouth pick the cherry. tt explain this pic... lol..

the guys turn.....

raymond and me. Happy for ray, going for NS on 12th Jun, and has been enrolled for NTU business sch! smart smart him.. GPA 3.86 Diploma in A&F with merit... woohoo~

the 2 gay boys.... meldon and david...

Group photo!!
yar, 3 more photos from graduation...

year 1 classmates... heri, fadzli, me, simon, kheng boon

hanis, adriel, me, ian, yingying

with my course manager, who has helped me alot since yr 1... if not, i think i would be having yr 4.1 now... hehex...

2008-05-22T08:08:00.000-07:00

YES!! FINALLY I GRADUATED!!
reached school at 4.30pm with dad and mum.
met up with wei chong at TCC entrance.
registered at 2nd level, wore the graduation gown and enter the tcc. =]
Everything goes on smoothly, we were tgt with another 2 courses, Accounting & Finance and Marketing. So i met Raymond and min min as well!!
Had some refreshment after that and started photo taking session!!

me and dear dear min!!

brenda, wei chong, me!

dad and mum

old man!! he give me a shock today.. unusual him.. hurhur~
rest to be uploaded soon.

2008-05-20T09:22:00.000-07:00

most likely will be going for COMEX fair (12th Jun - 15th Jun) at Expo...
work as usual boring, slack....
suprisingly vincent contact me, tot he had already forgotten me long ago.
saw quite a few friends these 2 days
tt includes eileen ng, eileen chuah, mei shuan, christine...
my face getting more pale each day... going to be sick agn very soon....
sigh.... can someone tell me how to be happy in life??

2008-05-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

time for short updates:
- got rejected from local uni [expected actually]
-been working for Apple Telecom for 3 mths
-no longer the cheerful and loud shuying...
-shuying is so tired of everything...
-trying to not think of anything hurtful
-new buddy founded!
-happen to realise how naive i was in da past
-moving on without her
-forgetting da past
Last Sunday celebrated jane's 20th birthday.
22nd May is Graduation Day.
31st May - Gab's 21st party!
*baby isn't it tiring for u to keep on running in my mind? i feel tired for u, yet it can't stop, tell me wad should i do with u plz~*

2008-05-02T09:38:00.000-07:00

so long din take pictures with my specs on le.. everi one say i look different... hmmm...

the results of blood test and injection... its fucking PAIN!!
nurse : "pain anot?"
me: "ok lar.... " ( tears rolled down my cheek)
nurse tio panick, run to call senior nurse...
haiz... after blood test, it juz bleed non-stop...bending my arms a few times, changed 5 cottons full of blood and 3 plasters wet.. den finally it stops...

IMM roadshow... i love this sony ericsson drawer, coz when u open it, its a MIRROR! hehex..

a few days after that, my hand from yellowish green, turned into this chao tar colour...
whoever bang into my left hand now i SWEAR i will give him/her one tight slap using my right hand...

2008-04-27T10:33:00.000-07:00

my life now seems so meaningless... purpose of life? my goals?? all disappear into thin air... studies... i have no confident in continuing... work is equals to no life to me... u gotta obey rules, meet requirements, deal with different types of people... everyday is juz a routine... i have no time for myself anymore... and i seriously hate this...
i'm back to square 1 after all this "happening" events tt occurred... i'm once again left with nothing... am i able to take it? i guess so.. even if i dun, who cares?? nobody even bothers abt me anymore... i'm juz a good for nothing living thing on earth... aimless, stupid, selfish...and i call myself a weakling.... i'm giving up hope on myself... goodbye world....

2008-04-19T10:11:00.000-07:00

saturday off day ! (yay!)
went to colour and cut my hair at Jeric Salon Bugis (finally~) ... and at night is David Tao's Concert! *excited*

Introducing Pearlyn Beh... hurhur~ she rawk my world!!
FYI she is someone who can't stop talking juz for a minute.... -.-
but who cares?!? she's juz too cool to be irritating..
Had lunch at Bugis... den cabbed to Kallang Leisure Park.. 1st time there... its still pretty new.. a lot of shops are not open yet.. but the main entertainments like KBox,Cinema, Ice Skating are ready liao.. =)

I din take photos of Tao Zhe, cuz my hp's cam really sux... =( but cj did.. hurhur.. nvm...
nice songs tonight... the feel is so different from his cd versions.. cuz he re-composed most of them... and he had 2 very power background vocalist tonight! woohoo.. got one by the name of "ke wei" is a singaporean, she's the best!! =)how i wish i can sing like her... wonderful....
he sang many nice and familiar songs tonight, like 找自己, 普通朋友, 爱我還是他, 就是爱你.. and the concert ended with the song "愛很簡單".... which i suppose is everyone's favourite...
alright, the interesting part of the concert is, he actually picked a girl from the audiences... guess wad?? her name is shuying!! BUT NOT ME! =((((
so sad can??? sigh.... and when others start to make fun of me... thats even worse =(
okay fine, at least when he say "the next song i'm gonna sing to shuying".. that makes my day.... (treating it as he is singing for teoh shuying and not other shuyings around) yeah =) hehex..

2008-04-16T10:22:00.001-07:00

2008-04-16T09:53:00.000-07:00

somehow or rather, i choose to believe ur stupid reasons... and took the risk of letting myself get hurt again... u give me ur reasons, i gave u my excuses as well... fair enough??

i dun understand y we can't talk nicely anymore.. i demand more care and misses, u said u did try to give, but i push them all away... u called without telling me wad u wanna ask or talk abt... therefore i asked " did they ask u to call me?" and i dunno y u got so angry juz becos of this question... saying its so hard to get me satisfied...

wadever i promise, i fulfill,(except for keeping fit)... hurhur...

u like that song "yong yuang yong yuan", i sang it juz to cheer u up a little, its also a promise we made earlier on...

today whole day yilong accompany me... so happy to meet up and talk to him... =)

lunch - pastamania @ cineleisure

program - Kbox @ k union

dinner - sakae @ borders

-home sweet home-

2008-04-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

schedule for coming months...
Month of May:
Either 5D4N Bangkok/3D2N Bali Trip
22nd may '08 - Graduation Ceremony [ still considering wanna attend not... lol ]
June: 3D2N Superstar Virgo [ Malacca & Redang ]
Sep: Shanghai trip [ waiting for sis to confirm ]
Dec : 3 wks Beijing [still pending]
thinking to go back taiwan next yr bah.. this yr go other places 1st... =)
nxt yr... taiwan... australia... and europe!! lolx.... thats my dream...

2008-04-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

"too much"
i have.....
too much things to do,
too much to think abt,
too much stuff to buy,
too much anger kept in me,
too much tears dropped.....

"not enough"
why....
not enough time to be together,
not enough to spend,
not enough care,
not enough attention ,
not enough fun ,
not enough sleep,
not enough joy...

"learn"
to be independent,
to let go,
to be unfrail,
to be contented,
to treasure,

most importantly, learn from mistakes.....

2008-04-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

i no longer hope for weekends to arrive, i hope for my off days!! hurhur... weekends sucks~
anyway, today i'm off... woohoo! and as usual, i can't stay at home .. or rather.. i'm booked ... went out with hui ling, amy and alvina... the usuals i call them... hmmm.. dinner and chatting sessions @ meridien shopping centre, shopping @ carrefour ps.... home sweet home! =)
all of us are busy working le...
amy - heeren (forget which shop)
alvina - maybank
hui ling - dhl global forwarding
me - apple telecom
sigh... got lots of things in mind, lots of things to share... yet... not a single soul is able to understand or rather.. will try to understand... double sad... thru me and ling.. i see another point of fact..
i love ling, she love me too definitely.. but different kind of love... she makes me realise me and "someone" is also this kind of love... i'm glad that i finally realise this fact...
time to move on...
photos uploaded =)

2008-04-01T09:02:00.000-07:00

too much things happened...
know new colleagues and friends in my company... they are real friends... friends who cared... who loved me for who i am...
true enough, friends come and go... but some will stay forever... sigh... can someone wake me up plz... i need a wake up call seriously...
hurt, disappointment, tears... all these are the side effects of being unable to let go... however, no matter how bad the side effects were, somehow i dun learn and get over it.... side effects that i must bear... its unbearable... nitez world...
*no longer at cck lot1 mall, transferred to suntec carrefour*

2008-03-24T07:33:00.000-07:00

work is boring and pissing... therefore, i make myself happy by buying care bear and eeyore!! yeah =) they make my day!! i had a sunny now!! hehex...
and i seriously hate u... so what if i;m angry,... u will only think that i am nonsense, fa xiao jie pi qi... wadever lo... i hate u!!! idiot.....

2008-03-22T09:18:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i last blogged... been real busy on my new job.. and now i really hated singtel so much... =.=
well, i dun have any photos to upload... cuz... juz dun feel like taking pics nowadays...
shumin went bangkok today and only will be back in 5 days time...
basically i have no time for myself now also... only one day off per wk is killing me seriously... travelling from tamp to cck is killer too...
but i have to admit commission is consider not bad... lol...
physically shag.. mentally breaking down.. emotionally... i dun feel like mentioning that right now..all i can say is i'm not at all fine...
somehow or rather, everything eventually turned out badly... its all gonna be the forgottens... and will be gone forever...

2008-03-16T10:04:00.000-07:00

triangles... i hate triangles...
so she did more things for u... she showed more care den i do... and here i'm telling u, its fine.. go to her side if u want... but have u notice my msn nick?!?
*sHuYing~* [ I'm lying 当我说要走随便你 ]
sigh... silly me... i'm speechless totally... i regret knowing u... i dun need the sweet memories and definitely not the pain u brought into my life. if its not becos of u, my life will have changed a lot.. i'm not blaming anyone here.. juz that i know i regretted...
and there goes my friendster shoutout " 祝福你是我的保护色 "
double SIGH... my life is so damn f*ck up now... 宁愿哈哈大笑也不要哭哭啼啼... i need laughing therapy now badly... =.=